Friday, September 11, 2020

Stop the World! Part 1 of 3: my memories

I've never experienced a World War—fortunately. I shudder to think of being involved in conflicts that consume multiple nations, multiple continents, and claim far too many innocent lives. The concept of a "world war" that has such a global impact is a horrifying one; we hope and pray it will never occur again.

But several times in my life, I've experienced or witnessed events and their impacts that have worldwide influence, interest, or implication—negative or positive. In fact, the current "COVID-19 Pandemic" is one of those, and the "race riots" following the George Floyd killing are another. These events have made me think about some of the previous stunning events I remember from my lifetime. I want to comment briefly on a few of them to set the stage for sharing a few thoughts about the current situations.

These are some of the occasions in my lifetime, in my memory, when it seems the nation or the world "stood still" for a time while we confronted events or incidents, good and bad, that held our attention and in some ways influenced us or even united us in our reaction and response.



11/22/1963 - As a 6-year-old in first grade, I remember that I was playing outside during recess on the hill at Peteetneet school in Payson, and heard someone say, "Someone shot President Kennedy!" We were called back in to class where tearful teachers had us watch news reports on grainy black & white televisions before we were sent home early. Most of the rest of what I know about the events came later, but even as a 6-year-old I could sense how deeply affected the world was by the assassination of the popular, charismatic young president.

7/20/1969 - I was 12 when the world paused to wonder at the unfolding saga of Apollo 11. I followed the reports of the launch and several days' journey, amazed at the science involved to achieve all that was happening. I vividly recall watching (still in black-and-white) and hearing the dramatic moon landing and first steps at a friend's home on a Sunday afternoon and evening. The subsequent liftoff from the moon, rendezvous, return, reentry, spash-down, and recovery each seemed so dramatic and fantastic—even though we weren't quite sure if the astronaut s might be bringing back some weird, unknown lunar contamination! We never looked at the moon quite the same after that.

1/28/1986 - I was working at IBM in Manassas, Virginia and was at lunch with some co-workers. Either during lunch, or right afterwards as we heard news on the car radio, we heard about the Challenger shuttle launch disaster. We pulled off at a furniture rental store to join the clusters of people around display televisions, where they were replaying over and over the video of the launch and explosion. The launch had been widely anticipated since it included a female high school teacher. There was speculation at first that the astronauts might somehow have survived, but that desperate hope didn't last long. The replay of the explosion video, and the attempts to analyze and explain, were nonstop for days afterwards.

11/9/1989 - I grew up in the years of the "Cold War" with constant high tension between the USA and the USSR. There was fear and dread about our communist enemies, the threat of potential nuclear war, and all kinds of horrible concerns. The "Iron Curtain" dividing the east and the west, though mostly virtual, was high and strong. And a wall dividing the city of Berlin was a physical manifestation of the separation. But through the 1980s, the curtain began to weaken. There were negotiations and invitations; there was a challenge from one president to another, "Tear down this wall." And when it happened, the world was rivited  to watch the wall crumble and the Communist Bloc deteriorate, overcome by a wave of free enterprise and hope.

4/20/1999
- We weren't accustomed to mass shootings on the scale of what took place in Littleton, Colorado. Two senior boys showed up at Columbine High School with multiple guns and took the lives of 12 classmates and a teacher before taking their own lives. The casual, deliberate nature of the act was chilling. I thought back to high school classmates who struggled socially or academically, and wondered what could drive someone to this point. But worse was yet to come. Perhaps nothing rivals the events of 12/14/2012 at Sandy Hook Elementary in Newton, Connecticut when a disturbed 20-year-old killed his own mother, then drove to the school and took the lives of 26 others including 20 first graders who were only 6 and 7 years old. How devastating to a community. I couldn't stop thinking of my mother's decades of teaching first-graders. How could someone look at those little faces, hear the cries and keep pulling the trigger?

Other similar heartbreaks through the years included 4/16/2007 at Virginia Tech, where my wife went to college, and where a shooter killed 32 students and himself; on 6/12/2016 in an Orlando Night Club with 49 victims plus the shooter who was killed by police; and then 10/1/2017 in Las Vegas when 58 people were killed by a sniper from a hotel window before he took his own life. So many troubled people, lonely people, angry people. This is a problem that won't go away easily.

1/1/2000 - I completed a degree in computer science in 1983. As I worked in the industry and read the literature, I soon learned about what came to be called "The Y2K (shorthand for 'Year 2000') Problem." In the early implementations of computers when storage was a limiting expense, dates were stored as only two digits (omitting the "19" portion of the century). Differences between two dates could be calculated by simple arithmetic, and such calculations were everywhere in all kinds of software. But someone realized that when 1999 became 2000 and you tried to compare dates based on only two digits, the answer would not be what was expected. They warned that all kinds of software would have issues, including embedded control software for utilities, transportation control, flight navigation, financial systems, etc. The problem would be especially acute when the current date became year 00, at midnight on New Year's Eve. So a massive industry sprang out of nowhere in the 1990s to specialize in rewriting software or installing additional checks and controls that could prevent disastrous results. Then, on the night of 12/31/99, we all held our breath. I remember watching the television reports as each new timezone passed the magic moment, wondering what calamities might occur. As the transition passed almost completely event-free, there was a huge sigh of relief. Some people believed we had all been victimized by a massive hoax, but many others felt that heroic "software rescue" efforts had averted the calamities.

9/11/2001 - My office was only a mile away from our home in Orem, Utah, and I went in to work early on Tuesday morning as I often did but then came home to have breakfast with the family. On the way home I heard breaking news reports on the car radio about a suspected tragic accident in New York City, involving an airplane flying into the side of an office tower. As I arrived home and switched on our bedroom TV to help Bonnie wake up, we saw the onsite news reports about the incident with the smoking "twin towers" of the World Trade Center in the background. As we watched, behind a TV reporter trying to share details, we saw the second airplane plow into the other tower. It was quickly obvious that this was not a tragic accident. We were stunned and shocked to watch the growing smoke and fire, and then witness the collapse of the towers—and then to hear of two other deliberate airplane crashes. America was under attack! The news coverage was incessant for weeks following. All air traffic was stopped in the US for fear of other attacks occuring; I remember how it somehow felt eerie to be conscious of the massive shutdown, that NO airplanes were flying anywhere in the USA. Patriotism reached a peak and flags were displayed everywhere; it was a time of remarkable patriotism and national unity. Some things were never the same again as security measures were dramatically increased in airports and other settings.

2/1/2003 - Following the 1986 Challenger disaster on liftoff, there was apprehension with each new shuttle flight. But we assumed the risky time was liftoff; we didn't expect the problems to come late in the flight! When the Columbia shuttle basically exploded into fragments upon reentry into the atmosphere as it was returning from its mission, just 16 minutes before its scheduled landing, it was almost as shocking as the first disaster. The cause was determined to be a result of damage to one of the wings when a piece of foam broke from an external tank shortly after liftoff; the exposed wing was unprotected during reentry and basically melted, causing the shuttle to lose control and eventually disintegrate. Seven more innocent lives were lost. Somehow these failures in advanced technology seem particularly gripping.

12/26/2004 - Our family spent the week of the Christmas / New Year's season in 2004 on a humanitarian service expedition in Mexico, working in a remote village that was quite isolated from the events of the world. When we emerged from that setting, it was stunning to read of the Indian Ocean earthquake and tsunami, which claimed the lives of over 200,000 people. In a world where we have learned to be constantly connected and informed, this was such a shock because we were so "blissfully ignorant" during our expedition of the suffering that had occurred on the other side of the world. The recovery efforts from this disaster were enormous and prolonged.

1/12/2010 - We knew there would be serious damage and destruction as soon as we heard about the shallow, magnitude-7.0 earthquake in Haiti. The epicenter was near the densely-populated capital, where pervasive poverty meant very sub-standard construction. It was heartbreaking to realize that the city basically crumbled, with multi-story concrete buildings collapsing in deadly heaps. The death toll was estimated at 250,000 with an additional 300,000 people injured, and 5 million people displaced. Many billions of dollars of aid were sent in the years that followed.

Then on 2/27/2010, only six weeks later, the Chile earthquake at magnitude 8.8 was significantly stronger. But because of various factors the damage and impact was much less. What made this one poignant and personal for us was to have our son Matthew serving in Santiago as a missionary. He and his companion experienced 3 minutes of shaking, along with many strong aftershocks, and then helped in cleanup efforts. We had some very uneasy hours that morning until we learned that he was OK! There were an estimated 370,000 homes damaged, and over 500 killed in the disaster.



So much of the experiences of our lives are lived in a pretty small "world"—our personal portion of the bigger world, unique to us and unknown to most others. When something happens in our little personal world, usually no more than a handful of people are aware. When something happens that impacts or touches millions of people instead of a handful, we marvel at the things we truly share. Often those things are compassion, emotion, pity, concern, love—the tender workings of the heart. Those things are much more important than we often realize as we navigate the challenges of our normal daily lives.

Monday, July 15, 2019

Walter David Kenison - a 100th birthday remembrance

My father, Walter David Kenison, was born 100 years ago today—July 15, 1919.  Not many people live to see their 100th birthday; but my Dad didn't even make it halfway.  He died in an accident at age 45, when I was 7 years old.

We gathered his descendants for a family reunion last week.  Counting spouses, there are now 83 of us.  My four sisters and I wanted to share the story of our Dad's life with his grandchildren and great-grandchildren, to give them some sense of the heritage that is theirs.  I spent many hours in preparation, studying all the records we have of his youth and his upbringing, the areas he lived and his predecessors.  It was a fascinating time for me, and I appreciated the chance to strengthen my love and appreciation for this man who is only a vague and distant memory for me.

The Kenison Family cabin in Talmage
In so many ways, my Dad's early life is almost incomprehensible to me—so different from my own life.  When Walter was born, his parents were homesteading in very primitive conditions in the Uinta Basin of eastern Utah.  The small log cabin that his family built and occupied in the area that would become the city Talmage had a front room, a kitchen, and four bedrooms; and an outdoor latrine the family referred to as "The Washington Monument."  There was a stove for heating and a well for water.  Plumbing and electricity were far in the future; my Dad had graduated from high school before he and his brother Albert built a new house for their (by then) widowed mother, and took advantage of the electric power lines that were finally run to the community.

Kenison Family in the 1920s;
Walter is the small boy front left
All the work of "breaking" the land, to prepare it for agriculture, was done by hard manual labor, with horse-drawn implements and the muscles and sweat of my grandfather Thomas Kenison and his 5 sons.  Summers were hot and dry (requiring difficult irrigation of crops), and winters were very cold and harsh.  As other families moved into the area, they eventually established a school for elementary education, supplementing teachings at home.  Later, Walter would ride his horse Banjo 3 miles to a road and then catch a school bus to attend high school in nearby Altamont.  He graduated as valedictorian of his small class in 1937.

As his 4 brothers and 2 sisters married and moved out (including a younger brother and sister), Walter remained to work the farm and care for his ailing mother.  They eventually sold the farm and moved to Salt Lake City in search of better opportunities.  There, he met our mother, a German immigrant, and they were married in 1952 when Walter was 33 years old.

Five children came relatively quickly: Angie (1953), Doris (1954), David (1957), Christine (1958), and Judy (1960).  We've been told that when I was born, the neighbors knew Walter had a son just by the way he walked.  He had been very close to his own father, who died when he was 14; and must have been especially eager to begin to raise his own son.  I loved to "walk in his footsteps" as I started to grow up, and have some sweet memories of those few years we shared.

Walter and Doris, and their
five children, summer 1964
Walter realized his dream in 1959 and was able to escape "big city life," purchasing a farm and moving his family to West Mountain (near Payson).  The years that followed were not easy; there were many challenges on the farm, but our Daddy knew how to work hard and we had a pretty happy family life.  The photo at left shows our family in the summer of 1964—we think the last photo taken of our Dad.

The accident that shattered our little world happened on October 5, 1964.  Our Daddy was crushed beneath the bed of a farm truck, where he had been working to repair the hydraulic lift of the dump mechanism.  Our courageous mother was left to raise five children, between the ages of 4 and 11, on her own.

I have pondered deeply about what my life would likely have been had this accident not occurred.  I know I would have grown up loving my Dad, wanting to be like him, trying to help bear the burden of the farmwork.  I know I would have wanted to continue to follow in his footsteps.  He probably would have encouraged me to go to college, but I doubt I would have studied computer science.  I'm sure I would have found a different kind of happiness than what I have now.

Instead, I've spent my life with a heart that ached to spend time with that tall, quiet man who left far too soon.

But it's not just for my sake that I've felt a great sadness for the tragedy of my Dad's early death.  Yes, he was blessed and privileged to marry and bring five children to the earth.  He baptized his two older daughters.  But he didn't get to baptize his son and younger daughters.  He didn't get to ordain his son to the Priesthood.  He didn't get to witness his children's developing personalities, their academic progress and success, their college achievements, their marriages to wonderful spouses.  He didn't get to rejoice in his 19 grandchildren, and the 41 great-grandchildren so far.  All of that happened after he left.

I remember noting when I reached the age when my Dad died, a little over 45 years.  At the time, I had two children who were already older than my oldest sister when the accident happened.  And I had already begun to experience things that he was denied.  That has continued for an additional 17 years now, and I've considered each day a gift.

We don't know for sure how much those who have passed on are aware of those of us who linger here.  We hope they are permitted to see or comprehend us in some way, particularly on special occasions; and there have been a few sacred times when I was sure my Dad was close by.  But it seems to me that instead, if we can be aware of them, and strive to preserve their legacy and honor their memory, to symbolically follow in their footsteps, we honor them in the best way possible and will find greater peace and joy.

My sisters and I at our parents' grave in Payson this week




Descendants of Walter and Doris Kenison, July 12, 2019.
There are 80 of the 83 descendants included in this photo.

Friday, April 5, 2019

"We Ever Pray for Thee, Our Prophet Dear"

Last Sunday in our ward sacrament meeting, we sang a hymn that always gives me flashbacks.
"We Ever Pray for Thee," Hymns no. 23
Text: Evan Stephens, 1854-1930
1. We ever pray for thee, our prophet dear,
That God will give to thee comfort and cheer;
As the advancing years furrow thy brow,
Still may the light within shine bright as now.
2. We ever pray for thee with all our hearts,
That strength be given thee to do thy part,
To guide and counsel us from day to day,
To shed a holy light around our way.
3. We ever pray for thee with fervent love;
And as the children's prayer is heard above,
Thou shalt be ever blest, and God will give
All that is meet and best while thou shalt live.
The hymn was written as a tribute to Wilford Woodruff on his 90th birthday in 1897, and conveys the love and reverence that latter-day saints feel for those who dedicate their lives in service to God and His church on earth.

Assembly room in the Salt Lake Temple
While I sang that venerable hymn with my ward on Sunday, I reminisced to a time over two decades ago. I enjoyed the rare and sacred privilege of participating in a meeting in the upper assembly room of the Salt Lake temple for those serving as bishops and stake presidents. Sitting in the front were the members of the Quorum of Twelve Apostles and the First Presidency. President Gordon B. Hinckley presided, sitting with his counselors above the Twelve on the podium.

At some point in the program, we were invited to stand and sing Evan Stephen's song expressing love and support for the leader of the church. As can be imagined, to sing about "our prophet dear" while in his presence is particularly moving; and to ponder the words of that hymn in such a setting is a special gift.

As we sang, I noticed something that I will never forget. I was seated fairly close to the front and had a great view of all the brethren. They were in varying degrees of "advancing years" as well, with their own furrowed brows. My heart reached out to these good men. Many who were there are now gone: Elders Monson, Packer, Perry, Haight, Faust, Maxwell, Wirthlin, Scott, and Hales.

It was interesting to watch the brethren singing; like all of us, they have varying degrees of musical ability and appreciation, and participate in different ways—some with more "enthusiasm" than others. In the middle of the group, seniority-wise, was Elder Russell M. Nelson. He loves to sing and play the piano (it's said that he has "perfect pitch"), and it was evident he was singing with gusto and feeling. However, I quickly noticed something about him that is deeply impressed upon my memory.

As we were singing those words of appreciation to "our prophet dear," Elder Nelson several times turned and looked over his shoulder, upwards at President Hinckley. It was very evident from Elder Nelson's expression and demeanor that he was truly feeling the words he was singing. His song was in fact a prayer, "with fervent love" and "with all our hearts." It was not hard to tell that he loved the Prophet and truly sustained him in all the best ways. That act alone endeared him to me in a way that I will never forget.

The years have passed; President Nelson is now the one well past his 90th birthday. He is now the one who bears the burden of presiding, and for whom we pray with love and concern. But there is a light within that shines from him, and I join those who fervently pray that the light will continue for as long as possible in God's wise plan. President Nelson, like his associates who work at his side, is not perfect; he is not infallible. But he is a good, sincere, devoted, faithful man fulfilling a divine call from God.

I will never forget seeing Elder Nelson physically turn to face the prophet as he sang his prayer of love and hope. Now, my invitation is to face the right direction and offer the same devotion. May God truly bless "our prophet dear"!

Saturday, April 29, 2017

The sacred gift of LIFE

SIXTY???  SIXTY???  How in the world did THAT happen?

Early in the morning on March 1, I watched the clock change from 5:27 to 5:28 a.m. According to my birth certificate, that moment marked precisely 60 years since my mother was not-so-gently relieved of her first phase of caring for me, as she delivered me to the world. (Thank you, Mom, for that moment and for so much more; I miss you.)

I looked in a mirror that morning, poked and prodded in a few places, stretched and bent, and thought carefully about how I felt. Somehow, there wasn't a bit of difference between David at 5:27 and David at 5:28. The clock tick didn't mean a thing. I'm now officially in my sixties; but so what?

But SIXTY! How can that be?? Passing each decade milestone seems to challenge our comprehension. These big numbers always applied to another generation, to old people, and not to me. I am still just a young fellow, full of vigor and energy, with my whole life ahead of me—right? I am NOWHERE NEAR the "senior citizen" phase of life!

Now if I look at the difference of decades instead of years, and try to compare the David at 30 with the David at 60, I might notice a little more variance—in some ways better, in some ways worse. There are more grey hairs, to be sure. There have been achievements and positive milestones, as well as some mistakes and some hard lessons learned between those two Davids. There have been some deep trials and some heart-rending disappointments among the joys and celebrations. But, that is life, right? I guess I'm glad to report that the weight is about the same, and physical conditioning is probably at least as good if not better now than then. There is much more experience and memory to draw upon. And there is a family—aw, the sweetness of a family.

Someone (Pope Paul VI or Nikita Ivanovich Panin, the Internet isn't sure which one) said, "In youth the days are short and the years are long; in old age the years are short and the days long." As the passage of years begins to accelerate, I feel the truth of that observation.

I often ponder on the fact that my own father was granted barely 45 years on this earth. There are so many privileges I have had, that he was not permitted to have:
• baptize and confirm all my children
• ordain my son to the priesthood
• watch children grow and mature into fine adults
• support a son on a mission
• experience the temple with my children
• see my children happily married to wonderful spouses
• experience the growing joy of grandchildren
• have my marriage relationship seasoned and deepened
As I ponder the joy of that list of family-related events, I can't help but be overwhelmed with gratitude for the gift of life. I am not just adding years; I am adding joy, constantly, as each day is granted to me. How grateful I am for that continuing blessing, for as long as God will permit it to last!

FAST FORWARD eight weeks after my 60th birthday to this week.  I'm now 60 years and 8 weeks old, and pretty proud that I can still climb mountains and do challenging things. But then, life gets your attention and knocks you back a step.

So before I know it, I'm lying in a hospital bed with an IV in my arm and an NG tube rudely inserted into my stomach, wondering if there is more surgery to come and whether my physically-active lifestyle might be about to change.

Early Tuesday morning of this week I had hiked with some friends at 5:45 a.m. as we often do for an hour of morning exercise. I came home and had breakfast with my sweetie, then showered and got ready for the day. But mid-morning, I started to feel discomfort in my stomach, and it continued to worsen through the morning. My abdomen became firm and then distended, and the discomfort turned painful.  By early afternoon, vomiting had not relieved the pressure, and it became obvious that this was not just an upset stomach.

I called Bonnie and we were soon seeing a doctor; an x-ray indicated a likely obstruction in the small intestine. We were sent off to the hospital, where I was admitted and a CT scan confirmed the diagnosis. The NG tube, as incredibly uncomfortable as it was to insert and maintain, helped to drain fluid and pressure from my stomach and brought some relief. I was left to wait overnight; the bowels often are able to correct the obstruction when the pressure is relieved, so we hoped that would be the case. In the morning, a barium swallow test with a series of x-rays confirmed that there appeared to no longer be an obstruction. In the afternoon, I started drinking and then eating soft foods; by evening I was back at home.

Amazingly, it is likely that this obstruction was related to the abdominal surgery I had in connection with my cancer 29 years ago. It's apparently not unusual for the delicate bowels, having been disturbed, to harbor scar tissue or some other remnant of the disturbance that can eventually result in some kind of blockage.

So now that "this too has passed," I am left to ponder mortality and uncertainty. I have no guarantee of additional years; I have no guarantee of additional DAYS. Not one of us does. Once again, I am reminded how precious life is, and how much every single morning should be considered a sacred gift. I must treasure each moment, find joy in all I do, serve where I can, keep trials in the proper perspective, grow in the love of my treasured family and dear friends, and never forget how blessed I am in God's hands.



Monday, February 29, 2016

RETIRED - or retreaded?? Transitions...

I remember as a young man hearing Elder S. Dilworth Young speak in a general conference address. Due to reorganization and changes in how Seventies were functioning in the Church, he was released from a leadership role in the First Council of Seventy and became a member of the First Quorum of Seventy.
He spoke eloquently about his sense of the joy of service, commenting that the didn't at all feel he was being "retired" (as some had wondered) but instead was being "retreaded" for ongoing service. I've never forgotten his analogy and expression of eagerness to go on working and serving.

[Sidenote: the concept of retreading tires is not as well known as it was in my youth. It refers to the practice of taking an old, worn-out, bald car tire and adding a new layer of rubber tread to give the tire new life and utility.]

Today, I "retired" from my career in the IT department at Brigham Young University. For that matter, after almost 33 years of full-time employment, I'm retiring from that phase of my life. But I hope I'm really just "retreading" myself for better things to come.

I've been a BYU employee for almost 15 years. Like every job, there were ups and downs; but it's been a great institution to be affiliated with, and I've appreciated the things I learned and experienced here. I never planned or aspired to return to BYU as an employee; that just kind of happened on its own. But there have been some real benefits.


Today as I walked around campus, taking care of final details with the employment office and many other groups required to "sign me out," it was a little melancholy. I recalled coming here as a wide-eyed freshman almost 42 years ago (can that be true??). It took me 9 years to finish my undergraduate degree in computer science, given interruptions for a mission, a long internship, international travel experiences, etc.  When I finally had my degree in 1983 I rushed away from campus before the graduation ceremony to take my first job at IBM in Virginia, never dreaming I would be back as an employee. So in a way, I've come "full circle" to end where I began.

I've always hoped to retire early, while I still had energy to "enjoy life" in ways you can't while employed. Bonnie and I have worked for this goal, and have been blessed in many ways along the path. So this is not an end; it's a beginning. "The best is yet to come." I will be "retreading" myself for a variety of activities to fill the time; I will be busier than ever.

It was nice to have a farewell luncheon with some of the folks I've worked most closely with in recent years. It's the people that make any activity worthwhile:



But when it came time to leave, I just picked up the few things still in my office space and slipped quietly out the back door of the building into the parking lot. I have to admit I didn't even look back; I was too busy looking forward, seeing the beautiful view and pondering what the next mountain is to climb (both symbolically and literally!).



It's kind of an uneasy feeling to be doing this. We're not COMPLETELY ready. Bonnie will be working for another year or more while I start getting caught up on projects and interests that I've been postponing for 33 years. Then we'll begin pursuing our shared dreams of service and travel. Do I have 20 good years left? I hope so. But however long the time is, I hope to make the best of every year, every day that I am granted!


Monday, February 15, 2016

CTR - Choose The Right - and more!

The phrase "choose the right" does not appear in the scriptures. It was the title and theme of a hymn written by early LDS member Joseph Townsend about 1890. In the 1960s and early 1970s, the general Primary leaders of the Church adopted the slogan to help teach children. The familiar logo with initials on a shield became iconic, as inexpensive rings were given to each child to help them remember the simple motto. And though simple,  what a glorious and powerful message it is:
Choose the right, when a choice is placed before you.
In the right, the Holy Spirit guides. (Hymns, #239)
In more recent years, it's become popular for older youth and even adults to wear rings and jewelry that use the CTR symbol,  and various styles of the ring (including expensive, higher quality ones) are available to purchase. Many lives have been blessed as the ring or the song have helped remind both youth and adults to make good and wise choices, after seeking the Holy Spirit's guidance.

MEANING BEHIND THE SYMBOL

While I appreciate the CTR acronym and its symbolism in helping remind us to Choose The Right, on one occasion I was led to ponder other possible back-formations of the CTR acronym—what else could those letters stand for, or how else might they be applied? As other phrases came to mind, each brought insights and made me even more grateful and impressed by the power of the CTR symbol. At different times and in different situations, seeing the CTR acronym might be a helpful reminder of one of these other concepts.

1. CELEBRATE THE RESTORATION
In 2005, I had the privilege to speak at a local fireside on the 175th anniversary of the organization of the Church. For a conference of young single adults, we had chosen the theme "Celebrate the Restoration" and someone noticed the CTR connection. It was wonderful to commemorate those events and rejoice in the blessings that the restored Gospel brought to each of our lives. The CTR acronym seemed natural to "borrow" for the conference. We were truly grateful to celebrate on that occasion, recognizing how our lives had been effected and blessed by the events of the latter-day restoration.

2. CHOOSE TO REPENT
Perhaps the hardest, perhaps the most important choice we make is the one to repent. Every time we make that choice, heaven rejoices (see D&C 18:13) and our personal growth leaps ahead. Repentance needs to be a continual, even daily process if we want growth to be a continual and daily process!

3. CURRENT TEMPLE RECOMMEND
This was one of the most obvious links to the CTR acronym. It's a message that we've heard frequently from our leaders as they have tried to help us understand the importance, both of temple service, and our efforts to follow the standard of worthiness established for us. Consider this memorable excerpt from President Hunter:
"It would be the deepest desire of my heart to have every member of the Church be temple worthy. I would hope that every adult member would be worthy of—and carry—a current temple recommend, even if proximity to a temple does not allow immediate or frequent use of it."
- Howard W. Hunter, "The Great Symbol of Our Membership," Ensign, Oct. 1994, 5
It's been wonderful to see this emphasis extend even to our youth today, for each of them to be worthy of, and to make frequent use of, a current temple recommend.

4. COME TO RECEIVE
The are many situations in our spiritual life when we have the choice about how we will respond to an opportunity. Both of the verbs in this phrase are important. First of all, we must come. We elect to participate in the  opportunity. But then in addition, we must receive. We are active participants, even if only watching and listening. It's up to us to approach each experience with the attitude that we have something to learn, some insight to gain, some way to grow. A CTR message is an invitation to make the most of each opportunity, recognizing the potential that is there even in what may appear to be a mundane or routine event.

5. COVENANT TO REMEMBER
One of the most tender yet crucial principles of the gospel is reinforced each week as we partake of the sacrament in our worship services. A critical part of those sacramental covenants is that we "always remember Him" so that we may "always have His spirit to be with" us.

Our "Covenant To Remember" is the critical prerequisite to receiving, and retaining, one of the greatest blessings promised to us. As we "always remember Him" we are able to more fully "keep His commandments which He has given them," and then our lives are blessed immeasurably by that gift of Divine presence.

6. CHERISH TODAY'S REVELATION
There are two ways this phrase speaks to my soul.  First of all, while I love and appreciate all the teachings of the prophets, I truly cherish the current, living oracles above all others. Their instructions, warning, and counsel are for my time and my challenges. I'm eager to listen and learn, and know I am blessed as I heed the counsel.

But in addition, I seek for my own inspiration and revelation. I believe I can receive personal guidance directly from God and through the Holy Ghost to bless my life. This revelation is especially cherished, and I love the encouragement to seek for it more actively.

7. COMMIT TO RIGHTEOUSNESS
Church leaders have occasionally taught and encouraged about the principle of deciding once to avoid sin or commit to righteous acts. For example, President Kimball encouraged youth in this way:
"Now may I make a recommendation? Develop discipline of self so that, more and more, you do not have to decide and redecide what you will do when you are confronted with the same temptation time and time again. You only need to decide some things once!...
"Likewise, my dear young friends, the positive things you will want to accomplish need only be decided upon once—like going on a mission and living worthily in order to get married in the temple—and then all other decisions related to these goals can fall into line. Otherwise, each consideration is risky, and each equivocation may result in error. There are some things Latter-day Saints do, and other things we just don't do. The sooner you take stands, the taller you will be!"
- Spencer W. Kimball, "President Kimball Speaks Out on Planning Your Life," New Era, Sept. 1981, p. 50
I love this principle. Once the decision is made, if the commitment is strong, "then all other decisions related to these goals can fall into line." President Boyd K. Packer shared his version of the principle:
"I also have come to know the power of truth and of righteousness and of good, and I want to be good. I'm not ashamed to say that—I want to be good. And I've found in my life that it has been critically important that this was established between me and the Lord so that I knew that He knew which way I committed my agency. I went before Him and in essence said, 'I'm not neutral, and You can do with me what You want. If You need my vote, it's there. I don't care what You do with me, and You don't have to take anything from me because I give it to you—everything, all I own, all I am.' And that makes the difference."
  - Boyd K. Packer, "To Those Who Teach in Troubled Times", seminary and institute conference, Summer 1970; see 'That All May Be Edified' p. 272
This is not blind obedience; it's whole-hearted obedience! It's a Commitment To Righteousness that changes every aspect of life.

8. CULTIVATE TRUSTED RELATIONSHIPS
We are not meant to be alone in this mortal life. We are deeply blessed by family relationships, by friendship that strengthens and elevates, by bearing one another's burdens, by knowing there are others who will help to bear our burdens when we feel tired or inadequate. Those kinds of relationships of love and trust, whether in the family or out of it, don't typically just appear out of nowhere, and they certainly don't remain without some effort. They have to be nurtured and cultivated. It takes time, effort, mutual willingness, and love.

9. CONTINUE TO REJOICE
There should be much to be happy about in life. Joseph Smith, in spite of many troubles and tribulations, counseled: 'Brethren, shall we not go on in so great a cause? Go forward and not backward. Courage, brethren; and on, on to the victory! Let your hearts rejoice, and be exceedingly glad.' (D&C 128:22.) Not just a little glad — exceedingly glad.

I believe that joy comes when we have the Lord's spirit in our lives, and feel the fullness of the blessings of the Atonement (see, for example, Alma 22:15). In the midst of any situation in life, there is always reason to rejoice! It's only when we lose our eternal perspective that we forget the greatness of His gifts to us, and the ultimate promises of peace and safety as we are "encircled about eternally in the arms of his love" (2 Ne 1:15).

10. CHRIST THE REDEEMER
Surely there's not a more valuable reminder that we could wear on a finger or view regularly, than to recall the importance of Christ The Redeemer in our lives. For those of us who have chosen to accept His gospel message and strive to respond to the invitation He issued to "come follow me," He most certainly is "the way, the truth, and the life" (John 14:6).

As we strive to be His disciples by following in that way, we are blessed by His love. We learn to share His yoke, discovering that it is "easy" and that burdens become light (see Matthew 11:28-30). Gradually, as we more fully take His name upon us and learn of Him, we become more like Him. And that is the goal and purpose in life for every Christian.


The author with his CTR headband
CONCLUSION

"Choose The Right" is a simple and beautiful summary of an important Gospel principle: using agency wisely. If we do that fully and completely, we have nothing to worry about. I love the traditional CTR symbolism as taught to children in the Church.

I'm also grateful for the many ways I have found encouragement and help in other interpretations; these are only a few of what came to my mind. I invite readers to come up with ideas of their own, and share them with me!






Friday, June 19, 2015

The Joy of Sauntering

My calendar informs me that today, June 19, is "World Sauntering Day."  According to Wikipedia, the commemoration on this date goes back to 1979 when it was started in Michigan by an anti-jogger "to encourage people to slow down and appreciate the world around them."

I love the word "saunter" — it conveys a sense of relaxed, unhurried enjoyment. Each of these synonyms has a similarly pleasant feel to it:
  • Stroll
  • Amble
  • Mosey
  • Wander
  • Meander

The word "saunter" always brings to mind the story told about one of my heroes, John Muir (1838-1914), a legendary naturalist, outdoorsman, environmentalist, and philosopher. Muir loved to hike and camp in the Sierras of California. But it's said that he despised the word "hike" because it had too much of a connotation of rushing to a destination. (Imagine how he would feel about the newer practice of "trail running"!) He stated that people should "saunter" in the mountains, and would tell this story in support of his position:
"Do you know the origin of that word 'saunter?' It's a beautiful word. Away back in the Middle Ages people used to go on pilgrimages to the Holy Land, and when people in the villages through which they passed asked where they were going, they would reply, "A la sainte terre,' 'To the Holy Land.' And so they became known as sainte-terre-ers or saunterers. Now these mountains are our Holy Land, and we ought to saunter through them reverently, not 'hike' through them."
According to one person who spent time with Muir in the mountains:
John Muir lived up to his doctrine. He was usually the last man to reach camp. He never hurried. He stopped to get acquainted with individual trees along the way. He would hail people passing by and make them get down on hands and knees if necessary to see the beauty of some little bed of almost microscopic flowers. Usually he appeared at camp with some new flowers in his hat and a little piece of fir bough in his buttonhole. (Albert W. Palmer, "The Mountain Trail and Its Message", 1911)

What a marvelous image! Incidentally, most linguists don't support this etymology of the word. Muir may have learned his derivation from an east-coast saunterer who preceded him, Henry David Thoreau, who used very similar language and derivation in his marvelous essay from the 1850's titled Walking. Thoreau warned about imitation saunterers who really had no intention of going to the Holy Land, but just appreciated the charity that their pretense evoked. But an authentic saunterer was a Crusader, and "every walk is a sort of crusade... to go forth and reconquer this Holy Land from the hands of the Infidels." The essay on Walking ends with this beautiful phrase:
So we saunter toward the Holy Land, till one day the sun shall shine more brightly than ever he has done, shall perchance shine into our minds and hearts, and light up our whole lives with a great awakening light, as warm and serene and golden as on a bankside in autumn.

All too often, on my excursions into the mountains or experiences with nature, I find myself hurrying towards a destination. I have to get to the summit so I can return home and tend to the rest of my duties. However, my "saving grace" is that I love to take photos — both sweeping landscapes and intimate close-ups. That often slows me down. A friend captured this shot of me once, sneaking up on a flower, in the Timpanogos Basin:


So while "peak-bagging" and even trail running have their place, I appreciate this reminder on World Sauntering Day to enjoy the Holy Land that is all around us.

And in a profound way, this is a great lesson for life. We life in complex times when there are many demands and opportunities competing for our attention. We too often try to "cram in" as much as possible, rushing toward ephemeral destinations as if our urgency added value to the journey. Perhaps we need more symbolic or literal "sauntering" as a more prominent portion of life. It's not just the ground around us that is holy; it's not just flowers, birds, animals, landscapes, and sunsets; but it's especially the people. Our lives take on more holiness as we reach out to others, as we develop friendships, as we serve, as we learn together. C. S. Lewis understood this principle:
“It is a serious thing to live in a society of possible gods and goddesses, to remember that the dullest most uninteresting person you can talk to may one day be a creature which, if you saw it now, you would be strongly tempted to worship.... There are no ordinary people. You have never talked to a mere mortal. Nations, cultures, arts, civilizations—these are mortal, and their life is to ours as the life of a gnat. But it is immortals whom we joke with, work with, marry, snub, and exploit—immortal horrors or everlasting splendors.”
― C.S. Lewis, The Weight of Glory
Surrounded by so many wonders, who wouldn't appreciate the chance to saunter through such a Holy Land?